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I just wanted to devote this entry to a person who died last year on this day - Nikki We met in the internet, something about 3 years ago.I never could imagine that somebody from my little shitty russian hometown can share so many interests with me.Its a pity we met only a  few times in real, I so wish I could turn back time. Nikki was a really wonderful person, a musician, a writer, an artist,all in one!Though she was always saying she is not a gamer, but somehow she knew what were most of the games about, she knew so much, even more than any average person:) She was a big Final fantasy VII universe fan, the biggest Motley crue fan in the

Happy New Yearrrrr everybody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:) Meh..Im dying from hangover or I dunno what.Dancing too much isnt that good.My legs hurt.I feel like crap.

I feel like..I dont even have words.I guess Im having a depression. It all started from my dream, in which I saw one of my best friends.And later I found out that today he came back from army.Everybody ... everybody is having fun now and sitting there all together, at home, in Russia.I promised to come back for New year, because I wanted to see him after these 2 years.But I cant, due to money and visa issues.I feel so alone now. I hate Belgium at the moment.Actually I think I hate everything.At these moments you realise how much you miss your home country.Or just people who live there.Damn. And now ,ahead , theres all that xmas and new year